from M.M.

"The Wait"
im wrong
i've tried right for so long
i think my rights are turning wrong
sending me down roads that i stay stranded
lay banded with feelings that keep my bonded..
i've been here for so long in this place
standing still
trying to walk
reaching out my hand for you to lead me
for you to try to set the tone that i've been listening for
because i've heard it before
from others who have been to this place that i am trying to go to
and as im trying to focus on a destination that i know nothing of
the pressure against my eardrums weighs heavy from other ppl's words and thoughts
so lost i cant even find my own voice in this ordeal
i can hardly tell whats opposed to being real
im searching for me in you
im searching for us in truth
but im constantly here constantly constant
consistent im many ways
i guess at times its a con
an argument that stands through the test of time
asking "can we really have everything on a two-way street?"
im telling you i've seen it done to those i know, im just waiting for it to happen to me
and i dont know if its some sort of unlucky spell i was born with
my soul is torn with
this pressure that im feeling like never before
probably because my friends and loved one have been here before
been appreciated by someone who cares
i want it from you
and that's only because i care
about our future
but maybe im thinking too far
maybe im digging up scars that are supposed to be buried
hurriedly trying to make this right, trying to make you fit
but i really dont know
if thats how it's supposed to be
if you are who im supposed to be with
i just want more from you
i just want you to be mine
to be the object of what my parents want in a man for me
for what i want in a man for me
what god sees in a man for me, ultimately
but im waiting on him...still